I had made some DMT for a friend, so i had a bunch of it laying around, and more importantly, loaded in a yocan orbit that was in my hand. I was in my office chair and my wife was in bed while we were watching some inane bullshit on TV. My wife didn’t want to try it, saying that “a potion made from rainforest plants that sends you to hell doesn’t sound like a good time” which is fair so I didn’t press her, but I didn’t want to feel like I was in the way so I figured I’d rip it discreetly without her even knowing. Reality exploded, which tends to happen when you rip some DMT with no regard for dosage. I closed my eyes- meaningless, because I no longer had a physical body, let alone eyelids. When I came back, I opened my eyes and saw myself, sitting in my office chair, threads of energy connecting all of space and time, as though a curtain had been pulled back or I was perceiving some sort of higher dimension. It felt horrible and wrong but also beautiful, like it wasn’t meant for human eyes to see. I blinked and I was back, it was over, but my wife totally knew. Anyway that experience gave me a touch of the Cosmic Madness, I was pretty freaked out for a number of months and I’m scared to do DMT again 👍
Basically, I encountered a conscious entity, or perhaps multiple, that definitely wasn’t me. I was confronted with two possibilities: either I was communing with some external intelligence, or there was much more than just me inside my head.
Long story short, I started really dedicating a lot of thought to the problem of consciousness, and found myself with two possible explanations:
Consciousness is an emergent property of complex interconnected systems.
Consciousness is a fundamental property of the universe, which is just particularly sophisticated in complex interconnected systems.
If 1, it would be silly to assume the universe, as the most complex interconnected system we know of, would not develop some vast alien form of consciousness, which we might as well call “God”. If 2, then the consciousness “field” might as well be called “God”.
Ayahusca is the only thing that actually shows a bit of whats behind the curtain. Its very anti science since science thinks we are pointless beings in a pointless place. I disagree.
There is a spiritual battle for our souls and most people seem to be losing it. You really need to be open to other things than science as step one.
I had made some DMT for a friend, so i had a bunch of it laying around, and more importantly, loaded in a yocan orbit that was in my hand. I was in my office chair and my wife was in bed while we were watching some inane bullshit on TV. My wife didn’t want to try it, saying that “a potion made from rainforest plants that sends you to hell doesn’t sound like a good time” which is fair so I didn’t press her, but I didn’t want to feel like I was in the way so I figured I’d rip it discreetly without her even knowing. Reality exploded, which tends to happen when you rip some DMT with no regard for dosage. I closed my eyes- meaningless, because I no longer had a physical body, let alone eyelids. When I came back, I opened my eyes and saw myself, sitting in my office chair, threads of energy connecting all of space and time, as though a curtain had been pulled back or I was perceiving some sort of higher dimension. It felt horrible and wrong but also beautiful, like it wasn’t meant for human eyes to see. I blinked and I was back, it was over, but my wife totally knew. Anyway that experience gave me a touch of the Cosmic Madness, I was pretty freaked out for a number of months and I’m scared to do DMT again 👍
DMT made me stop being an atheist
What happened to make you change your mind?
Basically, I encountered a conscious entity, or perhaps multiple, that definitely wasn’t me. I was confronted with two possibilities: either I was communing with some external intelligence, or there was much more than just me inside my head.
Long story short, I started really dedicating a lot of thought to the problem of consciousness, and found myself with two possible explanations:
Consciousness is an emergent property of complex interconnected systems.
Consciousness is a fundamental property of the universe, which is just particularly sophisticated in complex interconnected systems.
If 1, it would be silly to assume the universe, as the most complex interconnected system we know of, would not develop some vast alien form of consciousness, which we might as well call “God”. If 2, then the consciousness “field” might as well be called “God”.
Ayahusca is the only thing that actually shows a bit of whats behind the curtain. Its very anti science since science thinks we are pointless beings in a pointless place. I disagree.
There is a spiritual battle for our souls and most people seem to be losing it. You really need to be open to other things than science as step one.
Is it hard to make DMT?
Not even remotely. A child could do it if they were careful with the lye.
Some search terms are “Dmt stb tek” and “a/b tek”
Nice, thanks!
https://www.erowid.org/chemicals/dmt/