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Cake day: June 8th, 2023

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  • Yes in high school I had a clingy ex that decided to plan all of our relationship out. In a year we would have sex for the first time, our first kid would be named Adelaide (???), we would get married just after high school, and at no point do we ever leave each others sides. Brilliant.

    I go away for a week on a family vacation and come back to my MSN FULL of messages wishing I was back. That vacation gave me time to realize I felt like I was suffocating. Told her I think we should split and she spent the next two weeks sobbing in class. She even brought her support cloak and top hat to math class.

    All her friends called me a dick and gave me dirty looks. She made YouTube videos sobbing while playing guitar and had a video slideshow of some pictures of us while playing. Her mom called me to tell me off for breaking up with her because now she’s failing her science exam.

    She finally starts dating another guy who happens to dress like me and resemble me (same hair style and facial features). They don’t last more than 2 weeks and then she dates another guy who looks even more like me. He finds her crazy and then him and I become friends over a shared crazy ex. I wonder what he’s doing rn.










  • Reign of Kings, a medieval online PvE survival game had a bug where the 360 rotation camera could be used in 3rd person mode to look inside of walls of other players. You could even access their chests if they built them against the wall (which they all did).

    This meant that you could loot everyone’s bases without even breaking in. The game went through several major updates with this bug still in place. My brother and I used it extensively.

    One day there is a major update and the release notes mention about how they have now finally fixed the “glitch where players items disappear from chests when placed near walls”.

    Real G’s move in silence like lasagna.





  • I had a dream I was within the blast radius of a nuclear bomb. My skin vaporized and it felt very cold for a very split second then it felt like all of my body just split apart and went everywhere all at once. Too quick to hurt.

    I became sand and my awareness was everywhere in a pile. I had no bodily awareness and nothing felt like anything. I just felt an odd sense of calm and coziness. Time went on maybe but sand just shifted and moved. Peaceful and weird.

    I woke up feeling weirded out.




  • I took 3 grams of shrooms and on the comedown, I started getting my usual “it would be very fun but very shameful to have sex with a guy” thoughts. It made me so upset. Why am I so messed up that I’m super into women but every now and then think sex with a guy could be very nice??? I usually shoved those thoughts back in my head where they were to be forgotten (until the next time they popped up).

    I went to have a shower with my wife to try and shake this feeling off. Halfway through the shower it comes back like a fucking train through my chest and I collapse to the floor sobbing. My life is genuinely over and my world is spiralling out of control. She asks me what’s wrong and I tell her everything. I’m the most ashamed I’ve ever been in my life and wish I could cease to exist in that moment.

    She responds “oh that means you’re bi! That’s awesome! That means we can have MMF threesomes!”

    All of a sudden it clicks. Guys can be bi too. It’s not just for women. This horrific self hatred, shame, and guilt that made me feel like a true outcast and alien my entire life was unnecessary.

    I go online and all of a sudden I realize that there are thousands and thousands of guys just like me.

    Fucking wild.

    She’s the only one who knows and will know because my entire family is very homophobic. My father sat us all down once and said “if I find out ANY of you are gay you won’t be on this earth for much longer”.