It’s difficult to say, really. It’s a form of acceptance. Accepting that you are who you are, taking things at face value rather than second-guessing everything you hear. I’ve got a decent head on my shoulders and feel more confident in my own abilities.

It wasn’t until I decided to call in sick from work last September. It was not a great winter to get through and taking a long, hard look at myself, my environment and my past was a very painful process.

I’ve been pretty aware of the fact that I was in need of psychological help since somewhere around 2018. Since then I’ve taken one step, in 2018, but didn’t follow through. I muddled my way through my last year of college, graduated, worked at a small publisher for about 3 years before moving to my current employer, moved, had a lot of personal stuff going on…

The step I took last September, to basically hit the brakes, was a turning point for me. But it took until the end of February to actually feel like I was on my way back up.

So in short: it’s pretty much all about confidence. Once you’ve accepted yourself for who you are, you’ll no longer feel like a burden to others. You’ll most likely also realize that people don’t often judge you without telling you stuff. After you’ve had an interaction, there is no need to wonder ‘oh I wonder what they’ll think of me, what will they think of me saying this or that’. Your overthinking will slow down a bit.

Couple of caveats:

• I am very aware of the priviliges I have gotten along my life and I understand not everyone can just call in sick for a year and get full medical support from their jobs, or be able to just freewheel through college;
• I am still a long ways from where I need to be and I’m starting both therapy with a psychologist and something called Acceptance and Commitment Therapy in group form.

I have a colleague who actually behaves in a way that I recognized right away. It is something I used to do a lot; talking like I was a burden on others, like the time people spent with me was time lost for them.

It takes finding out a root cause to stop this. Me, I’m a perfectionist. This manifests through me being a people pleaser: I hold myself to really high social standards and expect others to also set the bar high for me. I really don’t like it when people are disappointed by my actions, so that causes me to apologize more than necessary.

I’ve taken stock of my life the last six months and made a lot of progress on this front.

The best thing she can do to change her behavior is acknowledging she has an issue to begin with. As long is she is happy with her current behavior and you are not, the only thing you can do is explore why she feels the need to be like this and see if she can alter her behavior without distancing herself from who she is.

Did you think we didn’t have 2011 or Chevrolets in Europa

Yeah my point was more the engine size. The EcoTec in my 2001 Corsa was half its size. A 2.4 litre engine would be a high performance vehicle in Europe.

2.4 EcoTec. Tell me it’s American without telling me it’s American.

I think it’s falls under reckless driving

• IPC
• Instruction set
• Levels 1 through 3 cache
• Performance per watt, usually measured by benchmarking, gives you an idea of efficiency

Generally, you can assume that a newer CPU with a the same thread count as an older CPU will outperform it.

However, you’d have to keep in mind a CPU is a very complex entity comprised of its cores, its cache, its bridges, its controllers and whatever I’m missing. Intel, for instance, would not make any huge changes to architecture every other generational skip. It’s what they called tick-tock. The tick would be a new concept, the tock would be a refined version.

But redesigning the entire chip, ie its lithography, the layout of what is positioned where, all the way down the to smallest detail, will have some effect on performance. It’s difficult to quantify, hence the need for benchmarking tools like Geekbench.

Well yeah but I was talking about fixing their domestic issues

It’s funny how Democrats pretty much lost the election on the take that they aren’t much better than Republicans on issues that matter.

I kinda feel like it US politics was less like a talkshow where people just tell buzz words at each other but would actually have debates about things that matter, they wouldn’t be in this mess. But apparently that’s not what the American people want, so…

He makes a valid point until he starts naming examples of preventable deaths on US soil, like gun violence, lack of access to proper healthcare, domestic violence, infant mortality…

My house costs less than that and now I’m in debt for the next 30 years. And I do quite okay.

Polarising of two or more subservient groups is excellent for people in power. If you create the us-them narrative they’ll be so busy arguing amongst themselves, they’ll have no eye for the ones affecting their misery and changing it.

Now I’m not saying everyone should take to the streets and fight the government immediately, but bashing in your neighbours’s skulls because they drive Teslas and/or voted for Trump is not productive at all. Rather find some middle ground with them and see how to survive the coming four years.

Ah well my house is not that big. It’s my wife and me and three cats but we have rather large furniture so it kinda feels cramped.

Definitely house, preferably owned. I rented my previous apartment and had to run a lot of jobs through the landlord. Now, if something goes wrong or if I want to hang something with screws, I can just go ahead. And I love having a back yard. Front yard meh, just work, no joy.

Downside is that my house is not exactly well maintained and it was built in the sixties. So I’ll need to invest in some stuff in the next 5 to 10 years.

The Bad Lip Sync version of Gotye (Kicked Your Monkey And I Used Your Goat) kinda always comes to mind

Boost notifies me when someone responds to my comments. It might be able to push from certain communities.

Edit: I checked and it seems not

Could do with a lil Tuesday catering today

Om the colour wheel I’d say it’s greenish cyan, possibly bluish green.

Source

So. Both.

The rich racist spawns of pure evil are currently in office, how did they lose?

I see your awake tortie and raise you a sleepy kitty