this is depression talking. don’t delude yourself into thinking you’re an objective realist when you’re incapable of feeling joy. there’s plenty to be miserable about, but if you feel miserable about everything in life and find joy in nothing that’s called anhedonia and is a genuine mental disorder.
Try the audio captcha option, those usually have an actual answer it will accept. Which ironically speech to text is more or less reliably able to solve, and there are extensions to solve captchas automatically for you that way
I’ve been using Hyperion for a few years. I mostly wanted something with app drawer folders like nova offered and this was the best I could find